mood:
listening: "the circle" by butterfly messiah

I'm so angry with the circunstances around my work here...
this collage works requires too many stocks in hand. when I need something with an specific characteristic,
I search for it between my downloaded photos.
sometimes I found something diferent of what I was searching but it fix well for what I want.
the problem about it is the time I don't have to download stock images and ways to put in my home computer.
my wife is downloading some at work
- but she depends of a cd recorder that most of the time, isn't available...
I was trying to catch stocks in my work...
after exaustive days downloading it, I started, day by day, to send it to my wife's e-mail so she could put
with the other stocks and bring home.
monday 16 an asshole from my work just erased everything! my stocks, my personal paste from the outlook...
there's nothing I - or any other in my work that also suffer with him (everybody,actually) - can do about this retarded...
for more creative I try to be, I can't do new stuff with just a few stocks. by the way: I already did. this four you can see here.

I never tried to make a collage with pics made by my wife or myself.
I think it doesn't have fun as take others people photos. I think is because other people's pics don't came with the idea of ME.
I can't see simply "a guy" on a photo when the guy is me. it confuses me to realise the conception of every single element.
and , of course, I could start to think that's not a restrict collage work anymore, but also
a photography work - isn't my intention on D.A. (yet, at least.).
I have a photography work on fotolog. I'm thinkin' about continue this trick - don't upload something since november.
it was good for a while. never learned to like what I see about myself - even more when it was recorded somehow.
after a few weeks insisting in a relationship with the camera, my ideas about my apearence and modeling changed enough to don't be uncomfortble
anymore and extrat some fun with it. months later I stoped to have ideas and ispiration about self-portraits - and fotolog can blow up
anyones pacience...

but last weekend I decided to make some self-portraits and upload to fotolog. I thing I was so anxious about a new collage that I
couldn't work just the pic. I began to make a collage. don't thing it is realy good, but is something.
hope to post it here soon and show to you my friends and beloved artists.

don't you have this fear to? get away from DA for a long time and see that the other DAartists just forgot you?
I think isn't my case because there's just a few friends here that visit this place. my situation here is that I even have a f***n' gallery yet!

I know...I need to calm down...I didn't have my acumpulture therapy session this week - everything stops in this banana republic because of
the carnival.

...and sorry about my english again.

beijos to everyone!!!

bolshaw